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we dance to all the wrong songs
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| the bender... |
[06 Sep 2008|11:14pm] |
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Ok people, when i see you next everything will be different...
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| band camp |
[24 Aug 2008|11:06pm] |
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by the way> did i say i like the get up kids>? well i do
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| soccer |
[20 Aug 2008|05:38pm] |
soccer tonight, I'm tired, the game is in an hour.
whisky time :)
ooooh yeah...
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| liberation, for the poor, for the sick, for the blind. I LIBERATE for you, I will be your strength, |
[15 Aug 2008|11:21pm] |
life is taking a turn for me, for the 1st time in 2 and a half years i dont care anymore, I am growing stronger, My mind is coming back, I am back in controll. for the 1st time my eyes are not seeing their shame, they are not feeling so sick, clarity is at my doorstep and i will never give up untill the wrong has been set right. it is time to heal.
At work i laughed, i didnt care, i talked to people on a level that i so badly missed
I could feel the sickness dissapearing, never to return. People will never understand.
people just dont care, Today was the dawn of a revoulution. I am proud, I AM Stronger; I care: I want this to be better and i will never quit.
I cant, I'm getting my LIFE back, in true style, with myself :)
fuck what a day, a few mishaps but fuck! I'm feeling better
And tomorrow it will all be better
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| huggies are for loosers |
[29 Mar 2005|09:58am] |
once again, getting myself stuck in situations i cant back down from
sometimes i wish i could hide from the world for just a second, then i wouldn't have to put up with it all
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| it all started from a glance |
[07 Feb 2005|12:11pm] |
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caged like an animal with no respect,
without morality
if you bring me down ill tear this page and run
put me on show for your parade
and make me dance
because i am pathetic
and my words mean nothing
teach me your way and ill change
to make you happy
ill live your dreams and feel your desire
touch me and grasp my heart
because i am naive
and ill fall at your feet
ask me to jump and ill ask how high?
then drop me and watch me shatter
i thought time would heal my wounds
but the blades poisioned
and im bleeding
hold my head under the ocean and drown me
i wont gasp
i cant escape and i can never forget
dieing in your arms
we all laugh to the sound
we all feel...
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| the dream |
[22 Jul 2004|12:23am] |
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it went and happened... all it took was one look and i fell for her, she is incredible, everything i want, and all that i cant have. i looked into her eyes and saw things ive never seen before...
wake up, it was just a dream...
wake up
wake up
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[19 Jul 2004|08:59pm] |
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repeat and destroy
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[18 Jul 2004|03:39am] |
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every time i look in the mirror, im changing.
like a disease infecting me, the change comes daily.
so much has hapenned and so much will happen to me that will change me and beat me in to the person i will become...
the word RESPECT has a far greater meaning now then it ever did... the word TRUST will make my friends, the word LOVE will hurt me again. i owe it to myself to set the wrong things right... im scared, and lost im wearing thin
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ha! once again im miserable...its amazing how time changes things
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| downward spirals |
[16 Jul 2004|01:00am] |
im stuck in that event in time that everyone hates... i dont know what i want... and what i once wanted i know i cant have.
how do you go back to the way things were?? you dont, you start all over again and try to rebuild bigger and better things but theres always the things you hold on to and these are the things i hate. sometimes i just dont know... and thats the way its always goin to be.
downward spirals, misery calling...
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| happy birthday to me... |
[12 Jul 2004|10:33am] |
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The last few days have been incredible, my band played two gigs in 2 days! and most of my friends were there to see, i got a brand new "GIBSON LES PAUL STUDIO!!!" from shell and mum and dad and the lads, i got hairspray and product and a shower cap from shell. i dont think i could be happier, last nite i got smashed, the night before i got drunk :) i went to switch and saw prommies!! drank a bundle and smoked so many cigarettes... i just went for my hazard perception test and PASSED!! im 18 now... get busy livin
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| Chapel st disaster |
[27 Jun 2004|07:28pm] |
well kiddies what can i say... my wang always manages to get me into trouble, ( i know this sounds ironic) but whilst on chapel st wednesday, after seeing armageddon sky playing at revolver in my new refused hoodie!!!! (oh yeah baby) i came across a carload of P plated women who yelled at me take it off, give us a flash... after shell offered me $5 to proceed with thier request i jumped to the occasion... i sprinted to the car, across the road and proceded to whip out my wang (machine) the car load of girls yelled and screamed and then drove off... on my return to shell and the lads of armageddon sky, i noticed they werent cheering *twans turns around* OH FUCK!
POLICE, yes thats right the police... as i leaned toward the window of the passanger window the officer said "dont touch my car mate" so i was lucky enough to be pulled over by a cop with a power trip the size of mexico... so they asked me for id. (my id is faker than fake) so i gave them my library card, the pigs took my details, made comment about my attire and then drove off... ill be expecting the fine soon, OH heres the kicker, not for indecent exposure but instead for JAYWALKING, MOTHERFUCKER....
love you all.. twan xxoo
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| a letter to my best friend... |
[07 Jun 2004|07:54pm] |
its taken almost a year to realise what a great mistake i have made... every time you came with open arms i walked past you, you'll never know how much i miss you and how much i hate myself for passing you by, we always did everything together and i wouldnt have it any other way, we even froze together at the falls festival almost 2 years ago. you were the only person who understood me, and i never minded listeing to you and the way you felt about certain things... youre my best friend and i wouldnt have it any other way, i dont think anyone comes as close thought i once thought otherwise for a time. i miss coming over and doing nothing. i miss drinking so much goon that we both couldnt see, i miss you hoggin the bed when i crashed, i miss playing unreal tournament and diablo with you while i spewed fish and chips after we smoked all those bongs. theres no way for me to make up all the time we lost together and all of it is my fault... i dont want to not be there anymore. i miss you so much it hurts and i know you've missed me too. they all told me, ill never understand what made me do what i did but i was wrong. do you remember the ash tray i made for you at your old house? do you remember going to essendon station to do nothing?? do you remember me??? i remember you. i dont want to loose you... i dont care if i loose the rest but not you. your my nigga, your my best friend... ps your new haircut is emo as and i look forward to drinking with you again some time soon...
if i could turn back the clock i would have never left...
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[04 Jun 2004|02:51pm] |
anyone goin switch this week???
<3 twan xxoo
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| two four six eight, who do we appreciate? |
[31 May 2004|12:08pm] |
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what a weekend... just spent 19hrs working in two days :(
played a gig on friday nite went really well... the ARMAGEDDON SKY LADS ARE INCREDIBLE! go check em out if you can. dozz broke 2 straps and bled from the hand and i puched myself in the face with a mic and slightly chipped my tooth (a little embarassing) but all and all i'm ok... my rolling capabilities are tenfold now! :#
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| flowers filled with sweet poison |
[27 May 2004|08:02pm] |
i cant breathe i cant think i cant love i cant fucki cant swingi cant dance i cant laugh i cant smile... fuck you all i dont need theese lies i can be who i want to be, im free now there's nothing to hold me bak nothing to let go of... shes gone and i let her go so long ago, now its finaly clear that i'm happy this way, much happier i dont have to hold on to her misery and my pain. its all over
all over
all over
all over
time to start again
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| my demise, your victory |
[24 May 2004|12:59am] |
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dont pretend like nothing happened ever because it did... you were the aggressor and i was the aggressed. this hate is yours, trapped inside me; who put it there? you did goddam it. you fucked with my head and let me do the rest, you are my demise, you destroyed me... now i lay broken and bitter and you are the one to blame. your sweet when it suits you to be. your life is a lie, the wall fell down and im caught in the rubble
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